Can't Hardly Wait (7.02)

Original Air Date: 08.02.2008
Theme Song: "Can't Hardly Wait" - The Replacements


OMG, she is SO annoying. You know that girl. The one who can't utter a sentence or have a single conversation without mentioning the word "boyfriend." Well, over the past couple of months, I've realized something... I AM THAT GIRL!!! XD

It's true. Ever since I left Kyle back in gBurg two months ago, EVERYTHING (literally!) seems to reminds me of him: every book I read, every love song I hear, every pierced teen I dodge, and Yes, every "Top Chef" marathon I sit through. On something as recent as our trip to the Movies, I finally caught myself unconsciously mentioning him like 3 times in under 5 minutes. "You drink tea? Kyle loves healthy shit like that." "I guess it'll be OK, my boyfriend said Kung Fu Panda was surprisingly good." "Peanut Sauce? Kyle's favorite." "Your blind date was a nerd? So's my boyfriend!" WOULD SOMEONE SHUT ME UP ALREADY?! And there's no use in even asking me how he looks, because I'm blind to any flaws he might have. I'll just swoon and say, "I find him very attractive. Want me to go into detail?"


Back in February, on our way to Snow Ball, the topic of Long Distance Relationships came up... for reasons I no longer recall. While Emily & Sara emphatically defend LDRs, I am a skeptic. Ever since age 6 when I was indoctrinated into the Pen Pal Tradition, the idea of a meaningful, intimate Long Distance Relationship was, to me, a 4-lettered word. And that 4-lettered word was spelled D-O-O-M!!

CUT TO: Me, Three months later, diving head-first into one. *slaps forehead* I was never a fan of LDRs and let me tell you, being in one now, I'm still NOT. Even though guys like myself typically don't stay single for long, I've chosen to be single all these years because I refuse to settle for less than what I want. But in my opinion, while an LDR is a relationship--I won't deny that--it's a relationship without "the good part." Honestly, there have been times this summer where I've never felt more alone in my life! That's because, when I'm single, I expect to be alone and I'm cool with that... but when I'm dating someone, I want to have full access to him: IT SUCKS that I can't come home to him after a horrendous day; IT SUCKS that we're spending more time apart than we have together; and IT SUCKS that I have to be celibate during such a slutty season. :-( And the nights are the worst. I swear, as I'm writhing around my bed replaying our first night together, I'm practically experiencing Phantom Limb Syndrome--reaching for hairy arms and legs that are no longer there. I've mentioned all this to Kyle, but apparently, he draws the line at sending appendages through the mail. *scoff* He's sooo unreasonable!

But on to a more serious reason why I can't stand LDRs: the fighting... without "the good part." Back when we lived 15 feet away from each other, we'd bicker, we'd have it out, we'd resolve it, then we'd "kiss and make-up" (in less vulgar terms).

We're both pretty laid back and our arguments typically get solved very quickly. I mean, Gay or Straight, we're still guys. Typically we argue face-to-face no-holds-barred, and I'd noogie/tickle him into submission. Reading each other's body language, we KNOW when we're having a ridiculous fight and that nothing he says should be taken too personally. But now that we're hundreds of miles apart, whenever we want to express ANY emotion, we're forced to talk... and talk and TALK. I know, what are we, lesbians now? We're reduced to emails and IMs and text messages and if we're lucky, phone calls when both of us actually have more than 2 bars. Fucking Verizon.


I hate that we've had our first real fight over the summer... but then again, it's an issue that's specifically summer-related: a lack of communication. Although we needlessly called and TXT-ed each other relentlessly when we were hallmates, now that we're states apart, our chatting has dropped off tremendously. During our April-May cram session, I got accustomed to seeing my boyfriend everyday, spending close to 8 hours with him, and if I needed to escape, all I had to do was invite him over. What can I say? I'm spoiled AND I'm just NOW getting used to the 4-day wait between messages, and I just repeat to myself, "We're both busy. He hates smalltalk. But he does care about me, and I care about him."

Even though he has got quite a few ass-kickings coming his way when I get back, I'm still OVER-THE-MOON excited that I get to see Kyle in less than 4 weeks. It hasn't helped that everything in Pasadena happens in dog years. xD

PS - As some of my ol' pals already know, I like to make mix CDs whenever I need comfort or something to help me cope. Here's a mix I've compiled since I arrived in Pasadena.

J / K: Volume II

Track 01: When You're Gone - Bryan Adams & Sporty Spice
Track 02: Let That Be Enough - Switchfoot
Track 03: See You Again (Rock Mafia Remix) - Miley Cyrus
Track 04: Big Girls Don't Cry (Personal) - Fergie
Track 05: As The Rush Comes - Motorcycle

Track 06: Heaven - DJ Sammy feat. Do
Track 07: Truly Madly Deeply - Cascada
Track 08: Anyone Else But You - Ellen Page & Michael Cera (from Juno)
Track 09: Bossy - Lindsay Lohan
Track 10: Cruel Summer (Inhaler Mix) - Bananarama
Track 11: When You're Gone - The Cranberries
Track 12: Conoci La Paz - Beny Moore (from Before Night Falls)
Track 13: You Are My Sunshine - Stine J (from Queer As Folk)
Track 14: Turning Japanese - The Vapors
Track 15: How Do I Feel? (The Burrito Song) - Hoku
Track 16: Missing You - Tina Turner
Track 17: Baby, It's You - Smith (from Death Proof)
Track 18: When Will I See You Again? - Erasure
Track 19: Who's That Girl? - Robyn

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