Theme Song: "Headlines (Friendship Never Ends)" - The Spice Girls
Previously on Chaos Under The Big Top: The College Years... Afraid that their close-knit, platonic relationship was becoming detrimental to both their romantic lives, James and Sara stopped hanging out for months on end, no clear vision of reconciliation in sight.
I guess I've always seen it coming. Honestly, on paper, our friendship has never made much sense--we're two different people from vastly different places and upbringings. Hell, in all our 3 years, we still have never even had a single class together. Thus, according to all rules of human logic, the sad-but-true reality is that our friendship was destined to die once the novelty factor wore off, right? ...Right?
WRONNNNG!!! :-D Fortunately for us, neither Sara's nor my world is governed by human logic! After she finally broke her silence and told me exactly how my irrational fear of platonic intimacy nearly destroyed an awesome friendship, we decided to take the summer and rekindle our wonderfully twisted, remarkably domesticated arrangement. Once August rolled around, I helped her move into the RISE house, and subsequently, we've restarted up Queer As Folk Night WITH A VENGEANCE!! That's right: we're already halfway into Season Four, WOO!
Looking back on all the drama, the too-long-unspoken insecurities and apparent betrayals, I'm happy that, when put to the test, our friendship was strong enough to win out. That says A LOT--that not only is our friendship very mutual but that it's also built to last a lifetime. Our separation has made us stronger individuals and now we're BOTH bringing our own unique experiences and world knowledge to the table. MUCH LOVE to you, Wonda' WOMAN (she's recently been promoted)!Sadly, not all of my relationships (in fact, most) are NOT like the one I have with Sara. When it comes to my "friends," they fall into several categories: ones I love, ones I like, ones I may not like but respect, and worst of all, "my fake friends," the ones who acknowledge our friendship when they need a favor, the ones who act so ambiguously toward me at times (as if I've done something horrible) that I can't tell if they like or dislike me.
Ask anyone, I'm typically willing to do [practically] anything for ALL my friends, BUT sometimes, I'd much rather have enemies than that last category I mentioned; at least then I wouldn't have to plaster on a fake smile for someone who hates my guts. So once again, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU, to all my peeps out there for being my friends because you want to, not just to keep up appearances.
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