Opening Song: "Hollaback Girl" - Gwen Stefani
Let Me Hear You Say
This Shit Is Bananas, B-A-N-A-N-A-S!
Must. Dance. Rage. Away! I took off work today so I could squeeze in a Sunday voice-over session for my upcoming play and *surprise, surprise* the only two who needed to be there... didn't even show up. Damn! Although Guy and Nicole were the only 2 people I really needed today (b/c they both have some pre-recorded lines in my play), neither one of them showed up nor did either one of them call me so I could just go to work.
RRRRRR!! If only my play wasn't in less than two weeks, I would've written both of them out days ago. And I swear, if Nicole doesn't come to at least ONE rehearsal (which she has yet to do) I am writing her ass out of my play. I love her and all, but she hasn't done any of the blocking or read with the other actors. And I don't feel like accommodating her, especially since her only excuse has been, "Oh, I forgot." *sigh* The pressure on all the directors is tremendous... especially since we have only two weeks to throw a show together.
Sadly, I took the day off so I could get some work done on the play (writing the Director's Cut and tweaking the fight scene) so I couldn't leave my office at all today. So lonely... the one time I'm actually in the mood for company and everyone's busy. Figures.
When it comes to me and relationships, I've always tried to be cautious and never bothersome. I know that I personally don't like clingy people, so I go out of my way to give everybody their space, since that's what I want. Friends are awesome, friends are great, but I don't like depending on them all the time 'cause when I graduate, I know I probably won't be with them for a LONNNG time.
Although some friendships are dead, lately I've found myself trying to revive a corpse, particularly my friendship with Panda (y'know, "the ex"). Whenever I see her, I put on the happy face, run up to her and warmly say "Hi." But when I step outside of myself and look at her, it's clear that she has no interest in being friends again. And physically, I'm fine with that, but for some odd reason, I keep reaching out to her... we had such great times together and it all ended so abruptly.
Right after the break-up I took a year-long sabbatical from dating (which was SO fun that I took an extra four months off) and of course, I got more offers... that really came in handy during the out-of-state band trip. Good times. But after all that, I've pretty much stayed far away from dating in high school and drowned myself in writing, exercise, and dance, of course. Occasionally I do feel loneliness, but it never lasts more than a day. Just me, myself, and I... that's all I essentially need.
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